I do not have many ex-es in my life, partially because like any other town girl, I have always wanted a long lasting relationship in my life. I longed to marry the first person that I dated. Clearly, the word "ex" denotes that I did not manage marry the first person I dated. With hindsight, I guess I am glad that the experiences that I had shapes me into a better person now. Of course, it comes with scars and it's definitely harder for me to like someone easily now.
Anyway, I received a mail from my ex telling me that he misses me a lot, and he wished that I was his bride. I hope he will move on and will be able to obtain happiness from what he has at the moment, rather than dwindling on the past. I pray for his happiness as much as I pray for mine.
My life has been very interesting with so many twists and turns. Coincidentally, it is at this moment that I met this guy whom I would like to know more. It is so strange how my ex-es and my admirers started coming back/coming to me ever since I started dating him. He is definitely not one who belongs to my world, or has much in common with things that I do in my world, but these differences somehow drawn me nearer towards him. His life is so much more colourful as compared to mine, so artistic, and so interesting.
Yet, strange enough, it is also at this stage of life that I don't emphasise much on relationship and marriage. Instead, I am more inclined towards improving myself and make myself a much better person before I settle down with anyone. When I was so looking forward to marriage, life has its way to let me know that it was not the time to settle down, yet when I am all geared up to explore the world, life somehow finds its way to make me to be stuck in a dilemma. I guess, there's nothing much I can do at this stage. Hopefully, time will tell me what my decision will be.
Life. Twist. Relationship and Exploration.
